Monday, November 23, 2009

Hurt Feelings

I have been doing pretty well sickness wise. Yesterday was a horrible day and I am always exhausted but overall, doing much less of the vomiting and such- which is to me the worst of it. This morning, however, I was in the kitchen making my kids breakfast and out of no where I start gagging and had to make a mad dash to the bathroom. Just at the point of my initial gag, Ava asked me a question. I, of course, could not respond. She asked again louder and then ran after me to the bathroom chatting away. It actually took her quite a few seconds to realize I was hurled over the toilet and her initial question (to be honest I completely forget what it was) turned into, "Mommy are you throwing up?" She must have asked me that five times and then moved on to, "Mommy remember when I threw up in my bed before?" and then when she still didn't get an answer proceeded to tell me that I was hurting her feelings.

Once I collected myself, I was able to give hugs and explain that I wasn't trying to ignore her but I need space when I am sick and I just can't talk then. I was kind externally, but let me say for the record what I was saying inside, "LEAVE ME ALONE! HAVE YOU EVERY TIRED TO VOMIT AND TALK SIMUTANEOUSLY? I DIDN'T THINK SO." I guess ultimately when you are sick you want someone to feel badly for you...probalby are never going to get that from a three year I spent a few moment feeling sorry for myself and now I'll gag down a banana and move on.

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